Big Butch Barks Back: The Demon Date

BIG BUTCH BARKS BACK

Created for some of the more raw and painful aspects of growing up different. Sometimes angry, sometimes funny, always honest. Sometimes, the language is very harsh because pain is not gentle.

I am determined to chronicle all aspects of living with absolute candor and genuineness. It allows a connection with others at a deep soul level because they see that you understand their struggles when you reveal your own. If you are offended by cursing or expect the beauty you see on my other blog, Whisper Creek, then you may want to avoid this one. This is the very human side of me, the one God plainly sees. It is the part that God is healing. Let that be my witness.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

The Demon Date

This is the time of night

when the demons come

and my heart races

and I can't feel numb

But I try, oh I try

to reach down low

turn off the faucet

turn off the flow

But the tears, oh they fall

and my heart, it does bleed

and I ask for a bandage

and i beg and i plead

But there ain't nobody out there

ain't no one awake

when the world crashes down

and I've had more than I can take.

And the sleep, it never comes

just tortures me to death

and I can't see through darkness

and I can't catch my breath.

And I rock till I'm thristy

then I rock till I'm tired

and I can't even nap

cause I'm so fucking wired

Finally I collapse

not even a pillow for my head

but I don't even care

just glad to have a bed

Then in mercy without limits

I finally slip into dreams

and I wake up with the daylight

and hope outweighs the screams.

Big Butch Barks Back