Guts

Take a knife

and cut me up

inside out

see my guts.

Read the signs

read them well

see what stories

they have to tell.

Tales with words

words of blood

pouring forth like

a crimson flood.

Can numb be painful?

Can light be dark?

Can outside be in?

the finish the start?

Makes no sense

no sense you see

this mind of mine

the mind that's ME.

The Fool

I looked in her eyes to see if I still knew her. I wanted her to look like someone else. Someone evil I didn't know. But I knew her. The part that had said she loved me was there but peaking out from behind her, a calm cold calculating woman who uses people who succumb to her charms then throws them away like they are trash. Once I was her obsession. Now she latches onto her next. As cold hearted as the person is I see, I miss the one who I thought she was and I must mourn the death of the one I knew. The one I loved. The one who I thought brought the stars out at night. She is gone. She is dead. And I hurt. I bleed, not from external cuts but from the internal ones brought on by all the lies. I am a fool.

The Demon Date

This is the time of night 

when the demons come

and my heart races

and I can't feel numb

But I try, oh I try

to reach down low

turn off the faucet

turn off the flow

But the tears, oh they fall

and my heart, it does bleed

and I ask for a bandage

and i beg and i plead 

But there ain't nobody out there

ain't no one awake

when the world crashes down

and I've had more than I can take.

And the sleep, it never comes

just tortures me to death 

and I can't see through darkness

and I can't catch my breath.

And I rock till I'm thristy

then I rock till I'm tired

and I can't even nap

cause I'm so fucking wired

Finally I collapse 

not even a pillow for my head

but I don't even care

just glad to have a bed

Then in mercy without limits

I finally slip into dreams

and I wake up with the daylight

and hope outweighs the screams.